Senate and Congress are officially on recess. Actually, recess officially kicked off on Friday last week, but I was still beating a few deadlines. It was only during the weekend that I finally got the time to think, settle my nerves down and looked forward to some slow paced work days. During the past few weeks, I had no time to think and I was too tired and uninspired to write any coherent blog entries. I would have a busy day filled with stressful events but would seemingly fail to write about them. I blame it on the insomnia attacks I've been getting; it felt like sleep has to be forced kicking and screaming just to get a decent shut-eye. The next day, I'd wake up with a throbbing headache.
There were times I kept re-evaluating over and over where my life is heading. Mauling on questions regarding career change, where to live/move next year, leaving everything behind and moving back to the homeland, and trying hard, in fact too hard, to answer the questions, "Is this it?" or "Is this really the life I want?"
Is this an early on set of a midlife crisis? Help!
are you not going back to school?? follow your passion, that's the lead :-)
ReplyDeleteArtemis, Yes, school is in the plan. I will follow my passion. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteYou definitely need a long vacation from work. I know how you feel. I've been there... and still stuck (T.T) Cheer up!
ReplyDeleteNhemskie, That's what I was thinking too - a vacation. I think I'm just stressed.
ReplyDeleteI agree, you badly need a vacation. Maybe your just a little bit bored on what your doing right now. Try something new. Follow your heart. Ask wisdom from Him and He will direct you ;)
ReplyDeleteHugs sis I know you'll get over it!
Jeanny, Thank you. Hugs back.
ReplyDeletehi kayni, i've been there! when i was around 25, life seemed to have lost meaning for me, and i hated my job, and my prospects for the future all seemed bleak and dreary. everyday was a drudgery. i'm glad i got over it, it was falling in love that rescued me. ^-^
ReplyDeletethis too will pass, just follow where your heart leads you...move house, study, learn a hobby, take a vacay- anything to break the monotony. you'll come back refreshed and recharged i'm sure. {{{hugs}}}
Ms. Firefly, Thank you. I cherish all the advices I'm getting at the moment.
ReplyDeletehi Kayni! you know what, when i was in my early 20's i thought i could hold my world in my hands forever but past 25, i started reevaluating my life and what i really wanted to happen with it... yeah, we all go through that. besides, we're not getting any younger... whatever makes you happy, pursue it...
ReplyDeleteJehan, It's true. We're not getting younger at all. That has been crossing my mind lately. Thank you.
ReplyDeletewould it help to be reminded that you are loved?
ReplyDeleteI'm currently reading What Color is Your Parachute by Richard Bolles. It's a very good book on careers, life, etc.
ReplyDeleteregarding moving back to the homeland, I might see you there since that's where I'm aiming my sails. hehe
And I sing with you, "I just don't know what to do with myself..." (remember this from My Bestfriend's Wedding OST?)
ReplyDeleteYou need a vacation. I'm having my 'moments', too, occasionally.
Maybe a quarterlife crisis? Hehe. Just kidding!
ReplyDeleteMaybe a break is what you need. Take care Kayni!
hi kayni! don't mull too much on where your life is heading! in meantime, while you're figuring that out, just enjoy life as it is and enjoy the ride! :)
ReplyDeleteyou need a break, Kayni love :)
ReplyDeletea vacation and solitude will do you good. hug you tight!
Angeli, Thank you. It's wonderful to know that I'm loved =).
ReplyDeleteWil, I've been seriously thinking of going back home. I'll see you there then.
Wits, I hope these are just moments...but I am trying to think of where to go for a little R and R soon.
Josiet, Thank you.
Kg, The ride's a bit bumpy for the past few weeks, but I'll try to enjoy it anyway...lol.
Kero, Hugs back. Yes, we'll get some vacation soon. Hopefully, it will help.
Oh. I have similar questions about life. Necessary baby steps had to be done. I wish we could find the answers.Ü
ReplyDeleteBlog-Hoppin'.
Hope you don't mind.
Hormones?????
ReplyDeleteYou need a little r&r. After returning from that, then you can more clearly see what lies ahead IMHO.
You're too young for midlife crisis :D
I thought maybe school is in my horizon too, but let's see.
just like you i'm feeling stressed here. hugs for you sweetie. this too will surely pass.
ReplyDeleteYou probably just need a break from the routine. Learn a new hobby or explore new places to visit, it doesn't have to cost much. =) I hope you find the answers to numerous questions. Hang in there, Kayni *hugs*
ReplyDeleteRuss, Thank you for stopping by.
ReplyDeletePhoto Cache, I'd hate it if it's hormones...lol. Why are women hormonal anyway?
Blue Rose, Hugs back. Yes, it will pass =).
Daphne, I'm seriously considering going somewhere for a break. You're right, it doesn't have to be expensive.
kayni, follow where the heart is. whatever your passion is, go go go for the gold haha! :P **hugs**
ReplyDeletego for a vacay! relax and chill! :)
It's hard when you can't sleep. How bout going to the gym? ^^
ReplyDeletei don't think it's midlife crisis kayni. it's just stree LOL calm down and eat sundae. that works everytime.
ReplyDeleteHi Kayni I empathize, your friends are giving you good advices so I'm just say *hugs!*
ReplyDeleteoh i thought you wanted to study? i remember reading about it before..maybe you just need a vacation to get away from it all? well goodluck with all the plans..take your time, don't rush...
ReplyDeleteKayni, life is short, savor the good moments and don't let the wrong ones spoil the fun. I know it's hard, i have to admit life has been unfair, good times come and go! Take care Kayni!
ReplyDeleteThose sure are life-searching questions... All the best in reaching the decisions...
ReplyDeleteHave you tried drinking camomile tea before bed to help with the insomnia... remember to also relax and take a few deep breaths before settling down for the nigt... Hugs, xx
Hi kiddo, your post is reminiscent of just what happens to everyone. Isn't life a buzz? I reckon you're about to enter a whole new chapter only this time you'll be bringing all the experience you've gained. Not a bad position to be in.
ReplyDeletethese things happen. and then they pass. just hang in there...
ReplyDeleteUnstranger, Thank you for pointing out that I am armed with experience going into the next phase. I feel like I'm in a video game and entering phase II - whatever awaits.
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