Monday, December 7, 2009

Waiting

On Saturday, we had our first December snow. I planned for a lazy weekend since I'm still recovering from my recent biopsy, but playing on the snow was too hard to resist. So with a sore back, I donned my jacket, gloves, and boots, and went out for a long walk. It was a struggle to still walk around, but when I felt the snowflakes hit my face, I felt a sense of hope and healing. Feeling the soft, cold snowflakes melt on my face invoked life and a sense of gratitude - that I could still feel and that I am still here. I was feeling rather low the past few days and finding inspiration was a task. I think that there are things we go through in life that sometimes beat us down, but I don't consider myself beat, I was just harboring the fear of uncertainty. I'm still trying to make sense of what's going on and trying to figure out what's next. It will be a couple of weeks before I hear about my biopsy results, and the waiting is killing me.

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  1. whoah, it looks like so many things have happened since my last visit here. i hope you'll soon be your old 100% healthy self again. yup, waiting is always the toughest part of it.

    good luck and may your christmas (advace) be a happy, postcard-perfect (the scenery at least) one for you and your family :)

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  2. Onyxx, Good to hear from you. Thank you and I'm also hoping to be healthy again =).

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  3. The waiting is the hardest part, but hang in there. You got loads of prayers coming from cyber pals.

    Parts of this bay area experienced some snow fall today too, pretty weird, good kind of weird. Too cold for this region.

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  4. biopsy? hope you get good results.

    oh, when will i experience snow? :)

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  5. bringing you positive vibes :) Get well! Hope everything will turn out well.. AJA!

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  6. Dear God,

    Please help Kayni. Please make her healthy again. I may not know her personally but I know she has a good heart and there are a lot of dreams still waiting for her.

    Kayni, trust God and keep the faith.

    **hugs** :)

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  7. i love snow as well, but they come late here in ireland, if, they do come at all. now i'm longing for february!

    stay strong kayni, i'm keeping you in my prayers! waiting strengthens faith, because there's nothing more you can do except pray. hang in there! ♥

    {{{hugs}}}

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  8. Waiting is always a torture. I hope the results are good. Take care Kayni! =)

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  9. I know what you mean by the endless waiting game. It is frustrating to keep waiting for test results. But I pray that you will be healthy again to enjoy the snowflakes on your face. Hope you feel better sooner than soon!

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  10. Be strong dear Kayni! I pray that God will give you more strength... the battle is the Lord's and He'll not fail!

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  11. To everyone, Thank you so much for all these support, prayers and well wishes. I really appreciate you all.

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  12. Get well soon Kayni. I'll keep you in my prayers. Waiting is excruciating I know. But stay strong.

    The way you feel about snow, it reminds me a lot of myself. I'm glad even just for a moment, you felt a sense of relief and be inspired from it. Don't forget that there's still Christmas and New Year's Day to look forward to. ^^

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  13. it is always difficult to find inspiration amidst trials but as long as you can, and i know you will always, you will be okay. hugs. praying for you.

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  14. hang in there! hope everyhting turns out well.

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  15. I am patient but at times I can hardly wait. I'll be praying for you. By the way, I still remember your entries about last year's snow. I was so giddy when you shared the photos. Take care!

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  16. Dearest Kayni,

    I am glad you had a lovely walk with snow flakes all over you. I am glad you are healing.

    Life is what we make out of it, and I can see how much you have taken and carried along and made it to a beautiful admirable one.

    Everything is going to be fine, not because of anything but because of you, how deserving you are. My wish list to santa would include your name. Take care dear!

    Sri

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  17. sending you happy thoughts and happy results to your biopsy..

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